all holidays are ruined, my birthday, the trip to vancouver, valentines day and now easter.
mr. no effort says he has nothing left to give. what a joke. he never gave anything. seriously i have nothing left to give. his idea of giving. hey you know where i live you can come over and watch me sit here and play on my computer.
sure because as long as he keeps telling me he loves me thats all he needs to do.
empty words...........

well yay im relaxed now, good ole canadian to destress, and chatting with a roommate and watching him clean hehe. reminds me of dave its kinda eerie.
all the whiney ex's whining at me about their missed opportunities, too bad soo sad. get over it. had to do dinner with the divorcing out laws last night. last dinner in the big 800k mansion on the hill. my moms house is sold. im going to pg for easter with or without ry he better come or else. seriously 7 family functions to zero! 000000000000000000000000000000!
if he doesnt come i probly wouldnt come back.
akon!
night night
ness

Why is it so hard to be a fucking man. geezus grow the fuck up.
PS its not my fucking responsibility to feed you.

the only time i post on here is when im mad. thats not very cool.
mmmmmmmmm bellinis though. should have had some more!
My moms house sold today.
Sam is coming to visit after Easter. Steve was like yay we can all go drink. haha no sam is pregnant!

well its been 9 months. this is how long i lived in bby before packing it in. sometimes i wonder if i should again. im sick today and yesterday maybe its the bread, had toast yesterday with peanut butter, and french toast today. i think im going to puke
gross.
my mom got approved for a $200000 mortgage
hard to find a house in that price range though.
i am less important than gaming. i feel loved.

well me and steve are scrapping with the roommate guy. each in our own way.
but seriously who rents a room and expects it to be ok to have the drunk ass loud gf around all the time, and bringing home stray guys for weeks on end without asking. like get a grip.
I had a good talk with *** tonight. he really is a good guy.
my mom is finally going in to get a mortgage tomorrow. shes gotta get a big house for sam and all her kids. on season 2 episode 11 of the OC.
feeling kinda naueous tonight after eating either peanut butter toast or that 1 piece of H&P pizza that steve gave me.
well yay for reminicing about the past some more. doesnt sound productive. past is the past its in the past for a reason.

Well here I am. Its sunday. Woke up early and watched 3 episodes of the OC. There was a creepy guy sleeping and making strange noises on the couch. Me and steve took back the bottles and went to red robin. I'm causing more and more drama for myself. But i think its ok. Havent really had any in a while. Ry is trying to win me back, he looks all hot again with his new hair cut. I dunno. Jason and Micah are coming down in two weeks to visit and buy a boat. I can't wait to see my truck again. I was talking to rob dth on friday he slipped on some dog crap and smashed into a trunk of a car while falling and seperated his shoulder. kinda funny. my old rob asked me to go with him to a wedding in august. I agreed. I was thinking about him a bit lately. drinking bellinis and watching mustangs drive by. he said hes in really good shape now. his friends are telling him to go into a body building competition.
I guess its good incentive to get back to the gym. I wonder if I could ever wear size 30 clothes again. haha that was 10 years ago last time. Guess we will see...

day 2
still alive drinking tho

Well its 1045pm I guess I should get my defiant picky high maintenance ass to bed.
6 episodes of the OC later.
PS do not send money in envelopes from dominican republic.

Well when someone tells you that you piss them off so much that they want to hit you, its time to go. Overnight I lost for the last time my 240lbs of dead jackass weight. Seriously every other time was the last time but this is the last last time. No more key, no more stuff there, well i left my (house) phone and forgot my big pot, oh well, and he owes me $20 for his haircut and lunch, but sometimes you just need to know when to cut your losses. What kind of person breaks up with you for asking him to go to dinner (for free) with your friends. LIKE WTF. get over yourself.
Sometimes you have to becareful what you wish for. When someone says to you never talk to them again so many times in a month it might actually happen.
Dave and *** are friends again and dave is moving back from vernon to PG. not sure if they are friends again because dave finally grew up or because im not there to make them fight anymore. hehe oh well its good for them.
me and steve and ryan and reena and mikey all went to Cactus Club for Bellinis last night. They are supposed to be cheap on tuesdays for doubles, and the dumb bellini machine was broken!
You can not go to cactus club and not get bellinis! Its a sin. hehe.
I just want to go on a roadtrip. Its so nice.