"Goodbye My Lover"Did I disappoint you or let you down?Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.So I took what's mine by eternal right.Took your soul out into the night.It may be over but it won't stop there,I am here for you if you'd only care.You touched my heart you touched my soul.You changed my life and all my goals.And love is blind and that I knew when,My heart was blinded by you.I've kissed your lips and held your hand.Shared your dreams and shared your bed.I know you well, I know your smell.I've been addicted to you.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.I am a dreamer and when i wake,You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.And as you move on, remember me,Remember us and all we used to be I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.I've watched you sleeping for a while.I'd be the father of your child.I'd spend a lifetime with you.I know your fears and you know mine.We've had our doubts but now we're fine,And I love you, I swear that's true.I cannot live without you.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.And I still hold your hand in mine.In mine when I'm asleep.And I will bare my soul in time,When I'm kneeling at your feet.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

1 more day at the pub woot! This is the LAST time im quitting. It seriously isnt my problem anymore.
Im tired but I don't want to sleep. I have so much to do. Yay for wink coming to help.
Stef started talking to me again today. Didn't break the curse still... maybe tomorrow night.
I dunno. im kinda hungry but dont feel like eating anything. grr hehe well in grainne's case fucking grr hehe
Im tired I cant even think of anything to write.
Oh well
Thats that I guess

woot for driving drunks around.
hehe steve is going to have a fun last day at telus.
who knew my sister could be such a bitch. like im going to let her get away with that.
freekin grow up already.
Juston is x jr.
hehehe
anyway i better go
Marc is here.
Cheers
ness

oops ps happy birthday stef

Year in review.....

I can't believe the word verification to sign in lexyz. pfft weird
It's been a weird year. Dave left, shane left, steve and x moved in.
I went out with heinrich and scotty. well apparently we 'were not dating' but anyway thats besides the point. I knew he was never my type anyway. I met this guy who was sooo hot and had the best night of my life with him. hehe my one great great one night stand of the year. he was so right though, he is the best any girl has ever had. anyway enough of that before it causes unnecessary drama. There really hasn't been a lot of drama going on lately which is good I guess. Big minor trip was to calgary with sam. sorry you were so sick the next day sister.
Really I just worked a lot which really sucks, it just sucks the life out of you. Was good times with x and Shaner. x is the best friend a girl could ever have. Thank you for taking care of me for the last year. It's been a smashing good time. I don't know what i'm going to do without you. Anyway time to move away and move on. Time to break the curse.
I'm looking forward to a fresh start in a new place yay Kelowna a new job the hell with the pub. screw you guys im outa here. not that there is anyone left there anyway besides deener, and dwain and my mom. it was crazy times with kelly and todd, marc my original partner in crime, rico and tannice, scotty and will, x and shaner, dave and lehoux, yay for drinking til 7am then going to work at 9. and the making out while driving down the road, and the roadtrip to vancouver with ryan
was a crashing good time too apparently. my poor car I crashed it, x crashed it, then nathan crashed into me, all in a matter of 3 weeks
anyway the song that is playing right now is its my life. im tired of just existing to work and sleep. i want more i want a good life with a good guy who is going to love me as much as i love him, not that i don't have ppl that love me here its just i dont love them as much as they love me or they dont love me like i love them. anyway enough of the pg crap. its not good when your circles of friends start entangling with your other circles of friends. Well J I hope you find a gf that can outlast me. its been a good 6 years. See you when you come down and propose. haha j/k

Well I guess I should get dressed and go to work 4 more days left then its over.
Thanks for this year lex I love you and will miss you so much.